I come from the water.....

So it's another Monday and it seems that this is the day that I post new blog entries.

:)


As such, here goes....

I find myself reflecting on the year 2008. A lot has changed for me. I've been through a lot. I've learned a lot about myself. I've progressed. (I've taken steps back as well). Plenty of adversity has presented itself before me.

I've struggled to be happy.

I went through divorce and would ask myself, "When is my life going to start again?" It's been tumultuous at best.

I've found myself returning to the beginning. Aren't all thing cyclical? We go back to the start when we feel lost. We have to ....to orient ourselves anew and recover our bearings.

All of a sudden I was doing things that I'd previously told myself I'd "never do again"
Maybe I shouldn't speak for ALL people, but I've found that there's a tendency to go back to what was comfortable before the relationship, when that relationships ends.

Heck!....I even started listening to music that I hadn't bothered with for years....because it was part of the nostalgia and effort to bring myself back to another time(before her)

Despite this tendency, and indulgence, I realized something about myself.......I don't want to be who I was before. I can better ...I should be more.

This isn't an easy mandate to follow.
How am I going to get there? (God will help me)
It's a mystery. (I gotta have faith)

I don't really see what the future holds, but I know I am trying to form it....so I better make it good.

One thing's for sure as I ponder 2008(so far)......It's been a wild ride!!!!

I don't know that I'd do it this way over again....but I'm happy to be where I am.
current problems and all.

Suffice it to say; I smile more than I have in a long time.
That sums it up pretty well, I think.

Cheers.

Happy image

over the weekend

I had the pleasure of seeing my children and spending some time with them.
Lately, I will admit that I have not been as good a dad as I could be.
I made it a point to really spend time with my kids having fun.
I've redoubled my efforts and focus on actual parenting.
(i know! what a concept!!!!!)

Sam(11) and I had fun playing battleship together.
Jonah(5) assisted his big brother in the efforts to blow me out of the water!!!!

Michael made paper airplanes and I helped the other kids to make some.
They made up all kinds of games for plane flying competitions. It was fun to participate and just see these kids flying around the room(as well as flying their paper airplanes around)

We went to the library
(Yeah, I know....not my thing...)
My kids were ecstatic to get a few books and have dad read to them.

I put a particular book on hold(they were all checked out at the time) that I'd like to read to my children. My mom read the book to me when I was a wee lad. Now I'd like to do so for my kids. Comment and I'll tell you what book it was.
(do I sound desperate for comments? Hmm.... Maybe I am)
:)
We listened to some family favorite rock and roll(queen) "We will rock you" and "Another one bites the dust". That's all it took for my daughter Libby who was very intent on dancing with me....So we had a daddy/daughter dance.

All in all, it was fun fun fun.
I lost focus as a parent for a while.
I'm not perfect.....but my kids are perfectly wonderful!
I love my kids.

Remember to hug yours
Tell them how much you love them.....and that you think they're pretty special!
(they are!!!!)

PEACE!

What I crave....

The holidays are upon us.
Halloween
Thanksgiving
Christmas
Then New Year's Day


For right now, I have a singular focus....
I must have something in particular





Pumpkin bars!
and not just ANY pumpkin bars......frosted pumpkin bars!!!!!!



Yes, there is always the option of SCOURING the internet to find the best recipe....trial and error.

But I prefer to use my blog to go fetch this information for me.
So.....
If you're reading this blog and you'd like to offer your FAVORITE pumpkin bar recipe(complete with frosting instructions) I'd love to try it.

Happy October to you!

MERESULKY

for friday

.......something relaxing

boldly!

I ATTEMPTED a post previously that dealt with this subject....got a little embarrassed and removed it.

I'm back with it.

Here it is.
Putting my best foot forward
(well, technically not MY foot, but a pretty one nonetheless)

random lyric
"The only thing
I've seen that's cool in my life
is a mom who loves a child and
a man who loves his wife"

Thank you, O powerful and gracious Jennifer P
:)

work

So..............

It's been a few days since I've posted, but that's OK.
(who's really reading this except for me anyway????)
*snickering at myself*

Since I last decided to post my thoughts on the blog, I have started a new job.

Ah yes....employed!

Fact#1: For 2008 I have worked a total of 5 weeks now.
Scary, huh?

Fact#2: Bears, Beats, Battlestar Galactica!

ok ok ok, fact#2 was Jim Halpert mocking Dwight Schrute, I admit.

But on a serious note:

I went thru divorce in March '08.
Had some savings to live on....
took a break from it all(the rat-race of working)
went into a little bit of debt(nothing to cry about though)


then,

the economy crashed ...
...but not before I had experienced a complete emotional meltdown as I saw everything that was "my life" spiral out of control and unravel before my disbelieving eyes.

Divorce does this to you!
(believe it!)
Word to the wise, whatever it takes to save your marriage, it's is worth it.
It's worth it by a long-shot!

I've broken on through to the other side and am picking up the pieces.

Full time employment was something I probably couldn't do just a few months ago

BUT NOW,

I am back. And not a moment too soon. I need the paycheck...I need the discipline.
And the best part is.....
I think I will really enjoy the new job.

so what exactly is the job?, you ask -

I'll save that for next blog post.
(insert devilish laugh here)